'Beautiful'

One of my favourite Christian song writers, Bethany Dillon wrote a powerful song called Beautiful...some of the words from it are,

"I want to be beautiful
and make you stand in awe
look inside my heart
and be amazed.
I want to hear you say
who I am is quite enough
I just want to be worthy of love
and beautiful."

How do we define beauty? Is it by the women we see on our catwalks or television screens? Is it by the way someone behaves towards us or others? By the measure of someones wealth and the clothes they wear? Or is it by the beauty of nature we see around us.
The valleys of Wales are beautiful, just like Kate Moss is considered naturally beautiful. But which is more beautiful...both are Gods creation? But unlike Kate, the innocence of nature needs no fancy clothes and expensive make up to reveal its true beauty.

I wonder why we obsess so much about our image both on the inside and the outside. I often find myself checking how I look before I climb into bed, how stupid it that? As if my duvet cares what state my hair is in as I sleep under it!

There is this desperation for acceptance and confirmation of how we are as people. Its not enough anymore that God created us in his image and that being a beautiful person on the inside is what matters. No, I want to be beautiful to the world. Damn it!
I want people to look at me and be amazed, I want people to say who I am is quite enough and I want to be worthy of love.
Its just a shame that a lot of us believe that the only way to achieve this is spending an extra 30minutes each day, straightening our hair or caking our face in concealer. I am of course including myself in this I assure you.

God said " you are fearfully and wonderfully made." ( In his likeness)

I don't feel very wonderful.
And I have to admit that I'm pretty fearful right now, fearful because the number of scars I bear is increasing and I'm still not as beautiful as I want to be. And before too long I may get found out, then people will realise just how ugly I really am.